Deal Chicken | St Cloud

"If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is."
— Charles Bukowski (Factotum)

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I hate cold floors and oatmeal

I've decided to give this blog thing another try. Seeing as I have far too many friends and judemental family on my Facebook and Twitter accounts, I'm about to begin my personal existential psychotherapy, on myself (haha), here. Where not many "followers" will know me personally and run into me at the mall.

I woke up on the Stearns Coundty jail floor this morning, for the second time in six months. Four times locked up in the last nine. I thought I was better than this.... Surrounded by druggies, foreigners, and first-timers I still consider myself the "normal" one. But who am I kidding. Today, all I see is emptiness. And considering it was drinking that got me into all this mess... all I want is a shot. Really, I want ten of them. Then I just want to lock the door of my bedroom and sleep for an entire year. Will it be over then? Will I have slept through my upcoming punishment?

Now I get "whiskey plates" and another ten thousand dollar fine to add to the drinking and driving fund. I know people who go their whole lives drunk... their whole lives driving into ditches... their whole lives free and clear from punishment. I resent those people. I fear I resent everyone today. I will break up with my boyfriend. I will tell my family not to call. I will refuse to see my friends. Today, I will be ALONE.

B

Hey, I lived in England. I know that bacon, bread and Butter make a delicious meal. Come to think of it F8ck the bread.
All my favorite words start with B. Including Breasts, boobs, (yep I love em that mucc to double mention them), base, bitch, bonanza, bone, boning (another double emention to note).
Working tonight. hope the Packers lose.
Peach